I want to be some kind of artist, professionally, but I don't know how to do it. There's so much basic art knowledge I didn't learn. I don't know if I'd even bother to draw others ideas, even if paid.

Tbh I feel almost bipolar about all this shit, probably because I have little faith in myself.

and I'm afraid I can't really get into design school, cause I don't know designer bullshit or style history, and I quite honestly don't care to learn IT'S FAGGY. I don't know if I can pass it because I so suck at managing projects, I procrastinate everything away, I have no routine.

And I feel time is running out on making THE DECISION of what to do with my life, cause, you know, I gotta have food on my table.

I went to a job interview today, and what the fuck is up with all the questions; "so why do you want to be in retail?" and I can't lie and be enthusiastic; money, dumbass.

I want do dig myself a hole and draw, but the world is full of distractions like the internets or my own toes I NEED TO FOCUS

I used to think these things would be easier when I grew older, but nothing comes on its own and if you will excuse me I'm in a really emo mood where I can't think anything good about myself, I'm just a lump guilt and minority complexes.

HAVE SOME SKETCHES [link]

Bug me to draw stuff, or something.